Thursday, June 30, 2005

MISTAKEN

Am I doing something wrong?

What is it about me that makes someone seem to want me, then suddenly doesn't?

I'd almost prefer being told to fuck off...get lost...stay away...anything but that fucking shitty feeling you get when you realize someone has changed their opinion of you.

I think maybe I should just stay away from people for awhile.

It's always been safer...lonely...but definately safer.

8 comments:

Anonymous said...

Been there. advice? Go hang with some couples; they will do all the bs that couples do that reminds you how fortunate you ARE to be alone and to be in the position to make a choice, and not just settle.

Edge said...

it's possible you're looking too hard for rejection and assuming it when it isn't even there. Then it can become a self fulfilling prophecy because it can frighten people away. Afraid that they aren't going to be enough for you.

Anonymous said...

maybe I won't be enough for them..

BladeRunner said...

Hang in there, as I told you "When you least expect it, BAM! you got him."

Blade has left the Web ;)

Anonymous said...

I think Edge's comment about self-fulfilling prophecy can often be the case. Your reply is very telling I think and it's my opinion that you simply must be comfortable in your own skin - confidence can be a really *major* turn-on. I know that it's easier said than done - perhaps just "fake it till you make it" would apply here. Confidence breeds mystery and some mystery creates desire. IMHO. =)

Happy 4th!

Anonymous said...

dang! what a potty mouth!

Anonymous said...

we only go to those who will turn away. we tell ourselves otherwise but the safe ones, the white bread vanilla ones make us want to hurl. so we flirt and twirl our hair and make him want us. we are so very good at that but we give up to early, too completely and we end up in the file marked S.O.S.- same old slut/song/shit. i infect people with wanting; i give way more than they can handle and they say things like "it's not you. you're perfect/beautiful but it's not right for now. i still sting from the last. but it's not you..."oh right. always has been me when it comes down to it. they chase and chase and i am stupid and give it all. and they say it's not me. not me all right. never me. and never you, sister. always alone. learn now; don't depend ever on a man because they'll be gone- but it's not us. yup. learn this, stand tall and alone and say it till you believe..." the face of alexander remains not only solely due to sculpture but to the power and force and magnetism of alexander himself..." psmith
i learned alone. i am alone. i live alone. and alone i will die and go on.

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