I just talked to him a couple of hours ago.
He makes me crazy...I want him so bad.
He makes me need.
He makes me want.
I swear, if we were in the same room together, I'd let him do what ever he wanted to me. I just hope he doesn't leave me.
He knows what he does to me...it makes him hard, I bet, knowing I get so hungry.
He knows what I need to do if it gets bad enough, and he tells me he will be the one to do that soon...
Damn you, come back...I need you, and you need me.
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I don't know the background but it doesn't sound good. It's fine to want somebody that much as long as you still value yourself as much as him. Wanting somebody that much can consume you.
I know he's not available the way I would like, and I do value myself very much. He's a sweet man, and if I had the chance, I'd love to get to know him much better. But I know what my reality is right now. Thank you for being concerned. It's nice when others look out for you.
i understand that hunger, the need that truthfully isn't really a need at all but the gnawing desire of both body and being. i feel it often; sometimes when i leave in the morning; sometimes when they keep themseleves just barely available creating a battle of wills (will i beg him first or will he be the one to look at his shoes and say c'mon...) "wanting" is so perfect a pseudonym because it is the way they leave us, always just a little unfilled, a little hungry; the seed that grows to hunger and to... wanting.
when i harness a bit of anger, i turn into aggressor, i take almost all i want and i try to leave a bit of that hunger behind, like a bit of scent, a little perfume of sex on the sheets and i hope so much the bastard hurts like me on those days filled with despair. but really i know the fuckers never do but for those small moments i fool myself into thinking maybe, just maybe...
some night ,maybe raining, maybe thunder and flash, go to him. push him back on the pillows and take him in a way he has never known from you. be who he would never expect... leave him wanting...
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